In a total irritated state. Like I really don’t understand how STUPID you can be. First you decide to delete your ig and then go and make another one…… Like really?! Then you go and request me….. Oh you’re just so funny. I mean really. You crack me up. Not sure if that’s your way of tryna irritate the fuck outta me or what….. Well guess what?! Yeah you...
UGHHHH! I don’t know what the fuck to think anymore. I’m depressed after losing practically everything. I swear I can’t get the things that actually matter. I’ve been engaged for 2 years and I’m still not married. I keep asking when we’re getting married but….. Ugh! Frustration and depression setting in. Whatever already……
I was told im the most dependable employee. Hmmm. What does that mean? Lol.
With the hurt upon my heart and the pain in my body I dont know which hurts more. Finding out my aunty has passed is hard to cope with. Not only is it hard, I’m trying to push through it and be strong. I need to be.
I wonder sometimes why I even bothered getting into a relationship. We argue more then we get along. Its ridiculous. Im here working my ass off to be able to help pay for shit that way he doesnt have to pay for everything on his own and I get the third degree for it. I guess thats what happens when you try to do more things for everyone else and think less of yourself. Like the fuck! Whatever....
So I don’t know if it’s just ignorance or stupidity making him test me so damn early in the morning…. Want free food. Mothafcka! You bess believe I ain’t givin free shit out period. You want sommin?! You finna buy that shit jes like everyfuckinbody else. Damn near irritated af now. Running on maybe an hour of sleep and to top it off I couldn’t fuckin sleep. So…....
Fuckin sick of this shit. Always happens. When the fuck are you gonna fuckin decide who the fuck you want?! You love talking to all these females. Wtf is your problem?! It obviously isnt me. You’re the one with the serious devotion issues….
It seems I can never seem to get it right. Either there’s someone who cheats, lies, or is stuck in that me me me me me me me state of mind where they’re right about everything and im a child who knows nothing. Getting really sick and tired of shit already. Literally. So quick to get up, get ready and leave. So quick to jump and be defensive about anything. I wonder….. If I were...
Getting to that point where im getting second thoughts again. Is what he’s daying the actual truth? He’ll change and he’ll do shit different?! I doubt it. Still going through that bullshit hiding shit all the fuckin time. Im getting sick of it. Yet when it comes to me I don’t hide shit. So who’s to blame if this relationship ends? Not me. Shower me with all the gifts...
Got that sketchy feeling
Why is it, when I try trusting someone I always happen to get this really sketchy feeling? Fckn irritated now